Why Can’t I Just Be Pain-Free and Healthy? Dealing with Several Issues (PART 2)

After soaking my toe in warm water daily, with absolutely no improvement, I followed up with the podiatrist’s partner one week later at the wound care center. When I got there, the nurse that I had always been most comfortable with saw me. She examined my toe, and said that it looked really healthy; that she didn’t see any signs of infection and that it seemed to be healing well. I told her that I agreed it did not seem to be infected but that my pain has not changed at all. At that point I attempted to pick her brain to see what she could come up with for possible causes of my discomfort and what solutions she may have. She was completely stumped and said we would have to ask the podiatrist. When the podiatrist examined my toe he was thrilled with how it looked, I explained that I was still experiencing pain and nothing I was doing was relieving it.


His only suggestion was to cut the toe off of an old pair of sneakers so that it wouldn’t have any pressure on it. I am not sure why I didn’t press further, but the fact is, aside from that appointment I hadn’t really been wearing shoes at all and was still in pain so I did not really think that destroying a pair of sneakers was going to help. The podiatrist sent me home with instructions to cover the toenail area with Silver Gel and to cover it with a band aid and a very small dressing that is the equivalent of a compression stocking, to help the swelling. He also recommended that I return the following week so that my original podiatrist could see me. After that, the nurse came in to apply the dressing to my toe. While she was doing that, she explained that Silver Gel is basically Bacitracin that has silver in it, which as I know by now, has antimicrobial properties. I left confident that I would be able to adequately care for my toe until I could be seen again.


During the time I was waiting for my appointment with the podiatrist, several other health issues needed to be addressed. Firstly, I had two appointments with the orthopedist regarding the pain in my wrist that was not decreasing, though I was on the prescription dosage of Ibuprofen and had been using the splint regularly. During the first appointment he had told me to just wait it out a few more weeks, unfortunately, waiting it out did not seem to be helping. When I went back to the orthopedist he examined my wrist and then left the decision as to the next step up to me. He said that it was certainly reasonable to wait it out a little longer yet he also explained that getting an MRI scheduled was absolutely warranted. I decided to schedule the MRI firstly, because I really did want answers and secondly, I figured with scheduling the way it usually is, my wrist would have time to feel better prior to getting it, which would enable me to cancel the test.

Awhile back, my urologist ordered a routine urinalysis because I am still looking for a cause of my lingering back pain. A few days later I called the urologist’s office, after receiving my lab results via the Patient Portal that my local hospital has. While I as a patient, do like that I personally get to see my results, along, with a chart that gives the normal ranges of numbers. The lab results from the patient portal of course do not erase the need for a physician, both to explain things to me in plain English and also to call in medication if necessary. When I spoke with the nurse, she said that my urologist was wondering if I was experiencing any other symptoms that would indicate a Urinary Tract Infection (UTI). I then explained to her that the only symptom was the back pain but no new symptoms had developed. She then explained to me that the reason she was asking was because my urologist was wondering how I felt about Not treating the infection if I was asymptomatic. The doctor’s concern with treating my infection was that I was becoming resistant to antibiotics that he was able to prescribe and so treating the resistant bacteria would be the job of the infection disease doctors. I explained, to the nurse that I felt like not treating it was the wiser decision at that point and that I would call the office if any symptoms developed.


All the while, my boyfriend informed me that he had wounds on his foot. Seriously, how much more medical drama could I be expected to handle? I admittedly, ignored my boyfriend’s wounds for a couple of weeks, because I was dealing with my own stuff. I also know that my boyfriend, while stubborn at times, was not going to let a wound get out of control so a part of me didn’t feel all that bad for somewhat ignoring his needs. When I did get asked to look at them, I did and saw two wounds, both of which were caused by his ill-fitting braces. I knew that my boyfriend had already gotten his braces adjusted so that they would hopefully no longer add to the problem. I then examined the wounds; the first one was open but had very little depth and to the best knowledge was not showing signs of being infected. The second wound, looked like a very small puncture in the center of a large callous. While the second wound appeared smaller than the other wound, it actually worried me more. I was concerned because I could see that it had some depth but due to its size I was not able to visualize exactly how much depth it had. I then covered both of his wounds with Bacitracin and put one of the only dressings I had on them. At that point we decided to call and schedule an appointment at the wound care center so that my boyfriend could be evaluated and we could be given some appropriate dressings. When I called to try to get an appointment for my boyfriend, we hoped that one would be able to be scheduled with the same wound care surgeon that we had both grown so comfortable with. We were pleased to hear that the surgeon was scheduled to be at the wound care center the following week so an appointment was scheduled. It seemed to me that we were going to be spending the day at the hospital because that day was when I was also scheduled to see the podiatrist.


The day before my boyfriend and I had our appointments at the wound care center was the day that I had the MRI of my wrist scheduled for. I went to the MRI appointment not at all worried about the test, mostly because I had certainly had MRI’s before but also because I had several other concerning things on my mind.


That week, I had noticed that I was starting to develop signs of a UTI; of course I had already been warned that the cultures had come back indicating that I had one so I was not surprised when suddenly I noticed that my urine was cloudy and had an odor to it, what did surprise me and temporarily scare me however, was when I noticed small amounts of blood in my urine. Of all the UTI symptoms the blood was of course the most concerning, until I remembered that with all of the Ibuprofen I had been taking, it was possible that the medication itself was causing that particular symptom. I mentioned all of this to the nurse at my urologist’s office and she agreed that it was possible that the Ibuprofen was causing the small amount of blood and as such she suggested I try to ease up on the dosage if it was at all comfortable. She also recommended that I have a consultation with an Infectious Disease doctor at my local hospital because, the previous bacteria was resistant. I did ease up on the medication and the blood in my urine eased to exist, at least to the naked eye. I also called and made an appointment with Infectious Disease, just to cover my bases.


In addition to the kidney pain and my painful wrist, I was of course following up with the podiatrist for my painful and still swollen toe. When I got there I casually mentioned all of the other health issues that were going on. When the podiatrist looked at my toe she was incredibly pleased with how it looked. The hematoma was gone and the nail was beginning to grow in nicely and I showed no obvious signs of infection. I then asked her why she thought I might still be in pain and she was somewhat unsure. It was then that she asked me if I had any other symptoms that might seem unrelated, that she would be able to use. After thinking for a minute I told her that I had been having some muscle spasms in the calf of the leg that was having the toe issue. At that point she excused herself to go talk to the other podiatrist, when she came back, she had a business card with her. She suggested that I see a vascular surgeon just to rule out anything that could be fixed. She also said that if the vascular surgeon was unable to help that I should seriously consider going to a pain specialist. Clearly, I had some things to think about and maybe even some doctor’s appointments to make, that would have to wait though, because an hour later, my boyfriend had his appointment with the wound care surgeon.


During his appointment we both explained what had caused his wounds, what we had been doing to treat them and that the issue with his brace, which caused them had been fixed. During the evaluation, the wound care surgeon voiced his concern that the situation was not entirely fixed because the callous was still present. The small wound that was on the callous was considered closed, too the wound care surgeon. I am currently slightly worried that it has more just formed a scab but that the puncture depth may still be a problem. The only reason I can come up with for not voicing my concern was that I somewhat felt like it wasn’t any of my business. If my boyfriend wasn’t worried, then why should I be? The wound care surgeon told my boyfriend and I that we were to put Iodosorb in the wound and then cover it with Aquacel Foam. Iodosorb is a brown paste, the purpose of which is to absorb fluid, and remove any fluid or debris that the wound may have. As the Iodosorb absorbs the drainage from the wound, iodine is released from the paste, which helps to kill bacteria. Aquacel Foam works, by gelling on contact with the wound’s drainage and then pulling the majority of the moisture away from the wound so that maceration does not occur, yet it also, allows for an appropriately moist environment for optimal healing. We were then told, to use foam dressing on top of the callous, not so much for absorption but to provide some protection from his brace. After we were both clear on the instructions to take care of his wounds we were told to schedule a follow-up appointment a few weeks later.

What is Stopping Me From Accepting Good Advice?

I have spent approximately the last week pondering the steps I will need to take in order to help resolve some of the medical issues that I am experiencing. Several weeks ago, my boyfriend gave me the email address of his urologist and suggested that I get in touch with him and ask for his thoughts. My therapist echoed his suggestions and still the contact information only sat inside of my wallet. During the time that the contact information for my boyfriend’s urologist was “gathering dust” I was somewhat focused on the issue with my toe.


I went to the wound care center last week so that the problem with my toe could both be diagnosed and then hopefully a treatment plan would be decided upon. When I got to the wound care center, I told my surgeon what had happened and after examining my toe, he told me that I had a subungual (under the nail) hematoma. I told him that I was experiencing some throbbing with it suddenly, and that my discomfort was what prompted me to get it looked at. He said that he was going to remove the toenail to relieve some of the pressure. He then asked the nurse that was with us to get him the supplies he would need. Of course, I was not entirely thrilled with having my toenail removed but I figured that it was going to ultimately make me feel better.


When the supplies were brought in, after asking about my sensation, my surgeon started poking around the sides of my toenail and cleaning it up a little. When he got to one spot I said that it hurt. My surgeon then questioned where exactly my pain was and I pointed it out. That is when his plan changed and he said that he was going to leave the nail in place. I said something at that point along the lines of, “you are”? He said that yes he was going to leave it and that it was actually better to leave it anyway. I asked him how long he thought it would take for it to grow out and he said that it would probably take about a month. When I asked him what I should do about the discomfort, he told me that I should deal with it if I could. I left the appointment with no plans to follow-up and thinking that eventually it would heal.


A couple of hours later, my boyfriend and I were out having lunch and I found myself sinking into an emotional funk. I have a tendency to over-think things and sometimes my thoughts make a minor issue snowball. I told my boyfriend a little of what had gone on during the appointment and that I was confused because the surgeon changed his mind. My boyfriend did agree that it sounded a little odd to him to but that I could just wait the month and if things with my toe hadn’t improved then I could call and ask for another suggestion.


The next day I had an appointment with my therapist and filled her in on everything. Again, she suggested emailing my boyfriend’s urologist and explaining to him what was going on as far as my kidney pain is concerned and that I was emailing him in hopes that I would be able to draw on his experiences in treating patients with disabilities. I told her that it sounded like a wise decision and somewhat agreed to email him soon. I also told my therapist what had gone on the previous day at the wound care center. I told her that instead of leaving the appointment with a plan I left feeling even more unease than I had when I first arrived. I explained to her that in my experience with my wound care surgeon, he had rarely if ever changed his plan in the middle of actually doing something, as he had during my appointment. I also said that it seemed a little odd that he originally was going to remove my nail but then when he changed his mind about that he said it was better to leave it alone. My thought was, if it was better to leave it alone then why was his first instinct to remove it. My therapist agreed that it was a valid question. Being that I failed to question any of this during my appointment at the wound care center, she encouraged me to either call or email my wound care surgeon to just ask him if he would let me in on his thought process. I questioned if she thought I should get in touch with my surgeon immediately or if she thought I should wait the month and see how my toe was doing and get in touch only if the plan didn’t work. My therapist told me that in her opinion I could email him that day or the next day or really, “whenever, I felt like I wanted to feel better about things”.


A few days ago I got up the courage to email my boyfriend’s urologist. After giving him a condensed version of my story, and explaining that I had seen a second opinion that gave the suggestion that my pain was lingering due to my disability, I asked if he could give any thoughts on what was going on. I was surprised to get an email back within twenty minutes. He thinks that I just need to see an urologist that will pay more attention to what is going on and offered recommend one. Unfortunately, the doctor he was planning to recommend is approximately two hours away from my home. I responded, thanking him for offering to give me the name of someone and that I would take the information. I also, asked if he knew of someone that would be a little more convenient for me to get to.


I have not heard back from my boyfriend’s urologist regarding any recommendations but I am hopeful that I will hear something soon. I have not however emailed my wound care surgeon to inquire about his thought process yet. Part of my hesitation is possibly because of the intense trust I have in him and part of it is because I tend to shy away from confrontation, especially with people that I have great respect for. I realize, that asking to be let into his thought process is not confrontational; it is just that I have never really questioned his judgment before. I guess, I will need to think about things farther to decide how I want to proceed in both of these areas.

If It Isn’t One Thing, It’s Another

My follow-up appointment at the wound care center was three weeks ago. When I was there, my surgeon asked me how I thought my wound was doing. I explained that I had seen a picture of it the previous evening and I thought it was doing well and that it was potentially finished. When my surgeon examined the wound he didn’t say all that much about it, he did however, apply Silver Nitrate to a section of it. I did not ask why he did that; I can only assume that he did it to give it a bit more strength. He told me that he wasn’t going to ask me to make another follow-up appointment with him but that if I felt that it wasn’t “perfect” in about three weeks I should come back in and have it checked.


I also had an appointment with a new urologist a few weeks ago. The majority of the appointment consisted of me filling him in on everything that had gone on with me in the past few months and why I was seeking his opinion. I explained that I am still currently experiencing what I think is kidney pain and that my prior physician had brushed my complaint off as just a sore muscle. I told the new urologist that I had been treating it like a sore muscle but that I really didn’t feel that it was muscular because icing it and taking pain medication was not working. I also explained that the pain seems to change with my urination so to me it was signaling a kidney problem.


The new urologist listened to my complaint and then asked me to show him exactly where my pain was. Once I did that he said that it does sound like kidney pain and that he had a couple of ideas why I was still uncomfortable. He said that while it is possible that the remaining fragment of the stone is causing me pain, based on its size and the location of it he said it is highly unlikely. He said that in his opinion my pain might be lingering because of my disability. A patient without my issues may experience discomfort for a few weeks after a similar ordeal but, in me, it may take months for it to dissipate. The urologist said that he has not seen many patients with my particular disability so he cannot say absolutely that is what is going on, only that it is something to think about. His final and in his opinion most probable cause for my pain was that I had developed a mild urinary tract infection (UTI). I said it sounded possible but in my opinion it wasn’t likely because my system was not behaving the way it typically does when I have a UTI, although I did agree to drop off a urine specimen at the lab so we could test for one. A couple of days later I received a call from the urologist’s office saying that an infection was found and that an antibiotic had been ordered. I took the medication for the prescribed time period, kind of hoping that the UTI was what was causing my pain and that it would all be resolved with the antibiotic. Unfortunately, the medication has not made me feel any better.

I have another appointment with the urologist in about a month so that we can re-assess the remaining stone fragment to determine if it has moved or changed in size. I have discussed all of this with my therapist and she thinks that he may have a point about my disability slowing my recovery process. She has suggested that I consult other urologists that may have a wider patient pool of disabled patients who may be able to tell me if that is possible. I have taken my therapists advice and have started asking around among some friends to see if any of their urologists may be able to shed some light on my situation.


Although my wound care surgeon had said that he did not need to see me if I didn’t feel that my wound was doing poorly, they cannot get rid of me that easily. I have an appointment at the wound care center tomorrow for an unrelated matter. It was approximately a month ago that I banged my foot on my bed frame. Of course it hurt when I banged it but the pain didn’t last very long. I noticed something on my big toe shortly after I bumped it, in my opinion I had a hematoma under the nail. It was not a pretty sight but I wasn’t in pain and I know that sometimes these things just grow out and resolve themselves; so my plan was to wait for it to heal, while monitoring it. After a few weeks the nail grew thicker at the tip and grew out and fell off. However, the remaining part of the nail was still over the spot that I feel is a hematoma. I figured I just needed to continue being patient. Suddenly, a couple of days ago, I noticed that my toe was throbbing. I thought about it and I could not remember doing anything to it that would have potentially re-injured it and it didn’t look any different. Being that the pain was a new symptom, I decided it was time to make a phone call and ask about having it looked at. I called the wound care center to ask if the surgeon I had seen for my wound was able to see it or if they thought that I needed to be seen by a podiatrist. Ordinarily, my primary doctor would probably have been who I would have called first but I have such a comfort level and a trust with everyone at the wound care center that I knew any advice they would give me was going to be good. I ended up texting with the nurse that I had seen most often and speaking on the phone with the receptionist. I was told that I could come in tomorrow and have it looked at by my wound care surgeon. I am interested to hear his thoughts on the situation and what may have to be done so that the uncomfortable throbbing will go away.