Tuesday, July 15, 2014

What is Stopping Me From Accepting Good Advice?

I have spent approximately the last week pondering the steps I will need to take in order to help resolve some of the medical issues that I am experiencing. Several weeks ago, my boyfriend gave me the email address of his urologist and suggested that I get in touch with him and ask for his thoughts. My therapist echoed his suggestions and still the contact information only sat inside of my wallet. During the time that the contact information for my boyfriend’s urologist was “gathering dust” I was somewhat focused on the issue with my toe.


I went to the wound care center last week so that the problem with my toe could both be diagnosed and then hopefully a treatment plan would be decided upon. When I got to the wound care center, I told my surgeon what had happened and after examining my toe, he told me that I had a subungual (under the nail) hematoma. I told him that I was experiencing some throbbing with it suddenly, and that my discomfort was what prompted me to get it looked at. He said that he was going to remove the toenail to relieve some of the pressure. He then asked the nurse that was with us to get him the supplies he would need. Of course, I was not entirely thrilled with having my toenail removed but I figured that it was going to ultimately make me feel better.


When the supplies were brought in, after asking about my sensation, my surgeon started poking around the sides of my toenail and cleaning it up a little. When he got to one spot I said that it hurt. My surgeon then questioned where exactly my pain was and I pointed it out. That is when his plan changed and he said that he was going to leave the nail in place. I said something at that point along the lines of, “you are”? He said that yes he was going to leave it and that it was actually better to leave it anyway. I asked him how long he thought it would take for it to grow out and he said that it would probably take about a month. When I asked him what I should do about the discomfort, he told me that I should deal with it if I could. I left the appointment with no plans to follow-up and thinking that eventually it would heal.


A couple of hours later, my boyfriend and I were out having lunch and I found myself sinking into an emotional funk. I have a tendency to over-think things and sometimes my thoughts make a minor issue snowball. I told my boyfriend a little of what had gone on during the appointment and that I was confused because the surgeon changed his mind. My boyfriend did agree that it sounded a little odd to him to but that I could just wait the month and if things with my toe hadn’t improved then I could call and ask for another suggestion.


The next day I had an appointment with my therapist and filled her in on everything. Again, she suggested emailing my boyfriend’s urologist and explaining to him what was going on as far as my kidney pain is concerned and that I was emailing him in hopes that I would be able to draw on his experiences in treating patients with disabilities. I told her that it sounded like a wise decision and somewhat agreed to email him soon. I also told my therapist what had gone on the previous day at the wound care center. I told her that instead of leaving the appointment with a plan I left feeling even more unease than I had when I first arrived. I explained to her that in my experience with my wound care surgeon, he had rarely if ever changed his plan in the middle of actually doing something, as he had during my appointment. I also said that it seemed a little odd that he originally was going to remove my nail but then when he changed his mind about that he said it was better to leave it alone. My thought was, if it was better to leave it alone then why was his first instinct to remove it. My therapist agreed that it was a valid question. Being that I failed to question any of this during my appointment at the wound care center, she encouraged me to either call or email my wound care surgeon to just ask him if he would let me in on his thought process. I questioned if she thought I should get in touch with my surgeon immediately or if she thought I should wait the month and see how my toe was doing and get in touch only if the plan didn’t work. My therapist told me that in her opinion I could email him that day or the next day or really, “whenever, I felt like I wanted to feel better about things”.


A few days ago I got up the courage to email my boyfriend’s urologist. After giving him a condensed version of my story, and explaining that I had seen a second opinion that gave the suggestion that my pain was lingering due to my disability, I asked if he could give any thoughts on what was going on. I was surprised to get an email back within twenty minutes. He thinks that I just need to see an urologist that will pay more attention to what is going on and offered recommend one. Unfortunately, the doctor he was planning to recommend is approximately two hours away from my home. I responded, thanking him for offering to give me the name of someone and that I would take the information. I also, asked if he knew of someone that would be a little more convenient for me to get to.


I have not heard back from my boyfriend’s urologist regarding any recommendations but I am hopeful that I will hear something soon. I have not however emailed my wound care surgeon to inquire about his thought process yet. Part of my hesitation is possibly because of the intense trust I have in him and part of it is because I tend to shy away from confrontation, especially with people that I have great respect for. I realize, that asking to be let into his thought process is not confrontational; it is just that I have never really questioned his judgment before. I guess, I will need to think about things farther to decide how I want to proceed in both of these areas.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

If It Isn’t One Thing, It’s Another

My follow-up appointment at the wound care center was three weeks ago. When I was there, my surgeon asked me how I thought my wound was doing. I explained that I had seen a picture of it the previous evening and I thought it was doing well and that it was potentially finished. When my surgeon examined the wound he didn’t say all that much about it, he did however, apply Silver Nitrate to a section of it. I did not ask why he did that; I can only assume that he did it to give it a bit more strength. He told me that he wasn’t going to ask me to make another follow-up appointment with him but that if I felt that it wasn’t “perfect” in about three weeks I should come back in and have it checked.


I also had an appointment with a new urologist a few weeks ago. The majority of the appointment consisted of me filling him in on everything that had gone on with me in the past few months and why I was seeking his opinion. I explained that I am still currently experiencing what I think is kidney pain and that my prior physician had brushed my complaint off as just a sore muscle. I told the new urologist that I had been treating it like a sore muscle but that I really didn’t feel that it was muscular because icing it and taking pain medication was not working. I also explained that the pain seems to change with my urination so to me it was signaling a kidney problem.


The new urologist listened to my complaint and then asked me to show him exactly where my pain was. Once I did that he said that it does sound like kidney pain and that he had a couple of ideas why I was still uncomfortable. He said that while it is possible that the remaining fragment of the stone is causing me pain, based on its size and the location of it he said it is highly unlikely. He said that in his opinion my pain might be lingering because of my disability. A patient without my issues may experience discomfort for a few weeks after a similar ordeal but, in me, it may take months for it to dissipate. The urologist said that he has not seen many patients with my particular disability so he cannot say absolutely that is what is going on, only that it is something to think about. His final and in his opinion most probable cause for my pain was that I had developed a mild urinary tract infection (UTI). I said it sounded possible but in my opinion it wasn’t likely because my system was not behaving the way it typically does when I have a UTI, although I did agree to drop off a urine specimen at the lab so we could test for one. A couple of days later I received a call from the urologist’s office saying that an infection was found and that an antibiotic had been ordered. I took the medication for the prescribed time period, kind of hoping that the UTI was what was causing my pain and that it would all be resolved with the antibiotic. Unfortunately, the medication has not made me feel any better.

I have another appointment with the urologist in about a month so that we can re-assess the remaining stone fragment to determine if it has moved or changed in size. I have discussed all of this with my therapist and she thinks that he may have a point about my disability slowing my recovery process. She has suggested that I consult other urologists that may have a wider patient pool of disabled patients who may be able to tell me if that is possible. I have taken my therapists advice and have started asking around among some friends to see if any of their urologists may be able to shed some light on my situation.


Although my wound care surgeon had said that he did not need to see me if I didn’t feel that my wound was doing poorly, they cannot get rid of me that easily. I have an appointment at the wound care center tomorrow for an unrelated matter. It was approximately a month ago that I banged my foot on my bed frame. Of course it hurt when I banged it but the pain didn’t last very long. I noticed something on my big toe shortly after I bumped it, in my opinion I had a hematoma under the nail. It was not a pretty sight but I wasn’t in pain and I know that sometimes these things just grow out and resolve themselves; so my plan was to wait for it to heal, while monitoring it. After a few weeks the nail grew thicker at the tip and grew out and fell off. However, the remaining part of the nail was still over the spot that I feel is a hematoma. I figured I just needed to continue being patient. Suddenly, a couple of days ago, I noticed that my toe was throbbing. I thought about it and I could not remember doing anything to it that would have potentially re-injured it and it didn’t look any different. Being that the pain was a new symptom, I decided it was time to make a phone call and ask about having it looked at. I called the wound care center to ask if the surgeon I had seen for my wound was able to see it or if they thought that I needed to be seen by a podiatrist. Ordinarily, my primary doctor would probably have been who I would have called first but I have such a comfort level and a trust with everyone at the wound care center that I knew any advice they would give me was going to be good. I ended up texting with the nurse that I had seen most often and speaking on the phone with the receptionist. I was told that I could come in tomorrow and have it looked at by my wound care surgeon. I am interested to hear his thoughts on the situation and what may have to be done so that the uncomfortable throbbing will go away.